good bye

good bye doesn't mean we won't meet each other again right? i know eventhough we are so far in miliion miles as long as we live under the same sky we have a chance to meet.
so it also means i still blogging as always but in different site. i think this blog consists too many unconditional things, too random and picky. i need a fresh one. because somehow my self right now different than me while i made this one. see you in my new blog --> potraitofgabriella.wordpress.com enjoy!

ke rumah Tuhanku

Post sebelumnya menyebutkan bahwa saya merasa tertohok karena lama tidak bergereja. dan akhirnya hari Minggu kemarin saya berhasil pergi ke rumah Tuhan setelah 3 minggu tidak pergi ke rumahNya. Rasanya? Senang sekali. Terlalu senang ketika kebutuhan rohani ini terpenuhi, Bahagia :)

Aku hendak menyanyi bagi TUHAN selama aku hidup, aku hendak bermazmur bagi Allahku selagi aku ada.    (Mazmur 104:33) 

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becerita tentang Ochie Manik, gadis 14 tahun yang berjuang selama 10 bulan menghadapi Leukemia dengan senyum dan semangat yang tidak putus walau akhirnya ia harus berpulang kepada Bapa.


Dalam ceritanya saya menemukan ayat di atas. Sungguh membuat saya malu. Terlalu malu. Beberapa minggu ini 3/4 minggu ini saya malas ke Gereja karena tugas dkk padahal apa salahnya meluangkan 3 jam dari seminggu untuk memuji Tuhan. Tuhan maafkan aku :'(

Bapa, sudah lebih dari seminggu Tuhan semenjak kepergian Chester.
Aku memasang fotonya sebagai layar desktop laptopku, dan aku masih terus saja menangis tiap hari jika melihat fotonya Tuhan.
Bapa, aku masih tidak rela, aku masih sungguh tidak rela Tuhan, Kau ambil dia dari keluarga kami.
Anjing pertama yang pintar dan sangat aku sayang Tuhan, begitu aku menyayanginya.
Tuhan aku masih tidak rela, aku belum sempat melihat memeluk mengelus dan menyanginya untuk yang terakhir kali Bapa.
Belum sempat aku hibur dia ketika dia dalam keadaan sakit, aku tidak sempat melihatnya Tuhan dan sampai saat ini aku masih sungguh tidak rela.
Sebegitu besar keinginanku untuk memutar waktu untuk bertemu kembali dengan anjingku Tuhan, sebegitu inginnya, sebegitunya aku memohon Bapa.
Tuhan, aku ingin bertemu, aku ingin memeluk, tapi entah  bagaimana aku bisa menghapus sedih dan sesal ini :''

Chester, i miss you

ya Tuhan, pagi ini saat ditelpon bunda sama sekali tak terpikir olehku kalau bunda akan mengabarkan bahwa anjingku, Chester telah berpulang subuh tadi. Terakhir aku ke Jakarta saat libur lebaran, Chester memang sudah sakit cuma tidak parah. Dia kadang pincang tapi masih bisa lari dan menyambut aku kegirangan saat aku pulang ke rumah.

Aku tidak tahu bahwa setelah libur lebaran dan balik ke Bandung, sakit Chester menjadi lebih parah. Memang bunda pernah menelpon kalau Chester sudah dibawa ke rumah sakit hewan di Ragunan, dan katanya Jantung Chster bocor dan sedang tahap pengobatan. Kata bunda dia masih bisa jalan, makan, kadang lari walau tidak selincah dulu.

Setelah itu bunda tidak pernah mengabari apapun tentang Chester, sesekali bunda ke Bandung, Grace tidak ikut dan di rumah, jagain Chester katanya, cuma tidak terpikirkan olehku kalau Chester sudah sangat parah. Hari ini bunda bilang, Chester meninggal karena komplikasi jantung dan hati.

6 minggu terakhir, bunda dan grace selalu bawa dia ke akupunktur di rumah sakit ragunan. 2x dalam seminggu. Aku sama sekali tidak tahu, setiap bunda dan grace nelpon tidak pernah mengatakan hal ini. Kata Bunda, semenjak lebaran kondisi Chester sungguh parah, dia ngga bisa lari, dia ngga bisa jalan, dia cuma bisa duduk dan tiduran. Dia buang air kecil dan air besar di tempat. Bunda dan Ace harus selalu bersihin, selalu mandiin Chester riap hari dengan air hangat biar dia tetap bersih. Tiap kali dibawa ke akupunktur Chester selalu ngga kuat kalau digendong, dia selalu kesakitan saat bunda dan ace memegang dadanya. Tiap malam Chester selalu menggonggong kesakitan. Bunda sudah ngga kuat lagi lihatnya. Tiap hari Ace selalu kasih obat dan berdoa di samping Chester. Tapi Tuhan, kenapa dia tidak kunjung sembuh?

Tadi subuh Chester kejang-kejang hebat, papa ingin bawa ke dokter tapi jam 3 subuh rawan bahaya di jalan, sehingga pagi jam 5 tadi papa dan bunda baru bawa ke dokter dan Chester meninggl di rumah sakit. Ace saat telpon bunda sebelum bel sekolah berdering dan sambil nangnis. Minggu kemarin saat adikku ucok pulang ke rumah, dia juga ga kuat lihat Chester dan justru mengatakan disuntik mati aja daripada tersiksa terus-terusan. Tapi Ace teriak ngga setuju dan nangis dia ga mau. Kata bunda selama ini si Ace yang telaten ngurus Chester, makan, obat, ke dokter, bahkan berdoa tiap hari di samping Chester. Tapi Tuhan, kenapa tidak Kau dengarkan doa adikku Tuhan? Kenapa Kau tidak memberi sedikit harapan untuk anjingku sembuh Tuhan? Kenapa cepat sekali Kau ambil dia Tuhan, anjing biasanya berumur 12-15 tahun, tapi anjingku baru berumur 7 tahun Tuhan, kenapa dia harus pergi secepat itu?

Dia anjing yang baik Tuhan, jika aku sendiri jaga rumah, aku ke dapur dia ikut, aku ke atas dia ikut, aku tidur, dia tidur di bawah ranjang. Dia selalu kegirangan kalau aku pulang ke Jakarta. Dia selalu mau ikut main kalau aku dan adikku bercandaan di rumah. Dia pintar, dia selalu menggonggonng kalu ingin buang air besar dan air kecil, agar tidak buang air di dalam rumah. Saat sakit dia menggonggong, tapi gonggongan sakit Tuhan.
Aku tidak balik ke Jakarta semenjak lebaran, aku tidak sempat melihat kesakitannya Tuhan. Tapi adikku Tuhan, adikku yang setia merawat. Aku yang di bandung saja tidak kuat mendengarnya apalagi adikku yang paling kecil Tuhan. Apa dia bisa terima Tuhan? Tuhan, aku kangen sekali sama Chester, kangen sekangen-kangennya. Chester anjing pertama kami Tuhan, tapi begitu pintar dan lincah, kami sekeluarga sangat sayang Tuhan. Sangat teramat sayang. Aku sungguh sedih Tuhan, terlbih lagi aku begitu kangen, Tuhan, aku belum sempat melihatnya lagi setelah lebaran, dan dia sekarang sudah pergi. Tuhan, aku kangeeeeeeeeeeeeeeen sekali :'(

Marry Your Daughter :')

Sir, I'm a bit nervous
About being here today
Still not real sure what I'm going to say
So bare with me please
If I take up too much of your time.
See in this box is a ring for your oldest.
She's my everything and all that I know is
It would be such a relief if I knew that we were on the same side
Cause very soon I'm hoping that I...

Could marry your daughter
And make her my wife
I want her to be the only girl that I love for the rest of my life
And give her the best of me 'til the day that I die, yeah
I'm gonna marry your princess
And make her my queen
She'll be the most beautiful girl that I've ever seen
I can't wait to smile
When she walks down the aisle
On the arm of her father
On the day that I marry your daughter

She's been here every step
Since the day that we met
(I'm scared to death to think of what would happen if she ever left)
So don't you ever worry about me ever treating her bad
I've got most of my vows done so far (So bring on the better or worse)
And 'til death do us part
There's no doubt in my mind
It's time
I'm ready to start
I swear to you with all of my heart...

I'm gonna marry your daughter
And make her my wife
I want her to be the only girl that I love for the rest of my life
And give her the best of me 'til the day that I die, yeah
I'm gonna marry your princess
And make her my queen
She'll be the most beautiful bride that I've ever seen
I can't wait to smile
As she walks down the aisle
On the arm of her father
On the day that I marry your daughter

The first time I saw her
I swear I knew that I'd say I do

I'm gonna marry your daughter
And make her my wife
I want her to be the only girl that I love for the rest of my life
And give her the best of me 'till the day that I die
I'm gonna marry your princess
And make her my queen
She'll be the most beautiful bride that I've ever seen
I can't wait to smile
As she walks down the aisle
On the arm of her father
On the day that I marry your daughter

people-around

it was ied mubarak 2 weeks holiday and i spent it at home. such a mess. i think i will spent time somewhere else because i'm really afraid i will be bored in this semester. it's all because of that short term and it's fenomenal exercise. so..

i don't know how my life recently going, i, honestly, am surrounded by not-mature-friend (age and emotionally) it means friends around me is younger than me (on their age) and mentally childish or i could say they are so sincere. and i find it difficult when i wanna talk about the haze in my heart and problematic life.

and when that time comes i really miss my old friend. they, who are such a good listener and good advisor. and i'm really glad i can meet them during this holiday. we only can talk by chat or text while we are apart. but i still thankful that we could talk by technology while i desperately need someone to talk to not just someone to blab things to.

sometimes i think, maybe, the environment like this will not make me more mature. what do you think guys?

continous why

when everything goes smoothly you are the thing which is under my control.
my forbidden and end-soon thing.
why should i know you as far as this?
why must you?
why ...

Null

cih. end up to null all the things that i schedule for Thursday to Sunday. Sad? Yes. Regret? No.
Family matter comes first. Whatever people say about focusing on studying, the answer is I CAN'T. I try my hardest to forget everything. But, i end up wake up til morning. Well sorry for disappointing the event which will held on this Thursday. I'm sorry. Even if i'm going with you, i can't focus, my mind will be flying to Jakarta. Sigh. Tell me how to control my mind so i still able to focus on doing my job! Hey storm, you stick to me, much better than the glue does.

blood-tie

once i was such a stubborn, tough-minded, and heartless towards my family. everything changes while my mom fell ill and it was like a thunder punch for me. i realize how important my family is. then another obstacle comes alternated to my life but thanks to Jesus because the faith that i have for Him saved me, my mom and all the obstacles for almost half of my age now.

although in my last post i talked about disappointment of believing on someone it doesn't include my family member. because this close blood-tie means everything to me. you know, you could chose with who you want to spend your rest life with, you choose with who you wanna share the pain, secret and happiness with but you could not choose the family you want. it is destiny. and i'm so glad i have parent who love me with their whole life. and because my parent i also love my siblings as much as i love my parent, as much as i love my self. so my sibling and my parent pain is also my pain.

today i heard such a bad news from my parent that my lil brother doesn't pass the university entrance exam to my campus. they told me to call my brother and comfort him. i couldn't call him, he switch off all his numbers. then in the minutes later he called me with his new number which i haven't saved his new number. He cried so much, he scream and said many despair words. he is such a naughty boy, he always makes my parent and me worry about his academic for many times. i think maybe this is the most difficult slap on his face from God for him. but. i can't bear it. i can't stand hearing his sobs and his desperation. i really wanna fly right away to Jakarta to hug him, to cheer him up. but i couldn't. at that time i also felt guilty and even now times shows 4:34 am and i still couldn't sleep a wink. thinking of him, his desperation. this is really killing me.

you know, this blood-tie really chain your heart one another. even when you are having fight between siblings, the harsh words come out from our mouth, but once you see your family member kneel down to distress you will fall to the ground too. and now, i'm such a helpless sister who can't give advise as an elder. i love my family, mom dad lil brother lil sister, with my whole heart. and now i'm asking life: Why you are so cruel?

believing. disappointment. contrary.

speaking of relationship, in one serial, they said, ''in relationship the most important thing is believing, so you must trust on him/her". then how could i dare enough to open my mind for welcoming stranger to my life and compare it to how much hurt i get cause of disappointment of believing on someone?

i don't know either me, who are too sensitive recently or that is how the world going? i've seen many disappointment of believing, i've tasted the feeling of rejected, alone. i've told myself that eventhough there are many examples of bad things nonetheless there will be a good thing appear and recover everything. I've watched many films and i even feel annoy when the lead character having too complicated taught and see everything in bad ways or we could say too negative thinking. but i can't help it.

in some meeting there is one senior asked me why do i still single till now? that question is quite shocking. ha! i've said many times that i'm not interested on having an affair with someone right now. but. maybe the fact is i'm too afraid to trust. can somebody help me how could i trust on someone in the condition i see and feel many rejection and i know how the fake smile is usually your habit and people around you habit?

how could you tell me to change myself if there isn't anyone who can show me how to smile cause i almost forget when is the last time i smile and laugh freely? you can say i'm too much whining but i can brave enough to say, 'don't disturb me cause i don't believe in you, who are you?' haha i assume there will be many people hate me while reading this writes. people, you can assume you can argue with your own way of thinking and so do i and this is what i think right now. it may be for a long time or short time depend on how my life remain later, but i still believe what Jesus said on Bible: all will be beautiful IN it's time. the reason why i don't give up yet in this life, i have faith to Jesus and the rest will be Him who point my journey.

Suckseed!

I'm sorry but i really love this Thai movie: Suckseed! And i like this song between the music and the lyric! Pardon me if i look like a teen, instead of my age ;)

The Official MV:

Atheist Professor Philosophy vs Student

An Atheist Professor of Philosophy was speaking to his Class on the problem Science has with God. He asked one of his new Christian students to stand.

• Professor: You are a Christian, aren’t you, son?
• Student: Yes, sir.
• Professor: So, you believe in God?
• Student: Absolutely, sir.
• Professor: Is God good?
• Student: Sure.
• Professor: My brother died of cancer, even though he prayed to God to heal him. Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But God didn’t. How is God good, then? Hmm?
• (Student was silent)
• Professor: You can’t answer, can you? Let’s start again, young fella. Is God good?
• Student: Yes.
• Professor: Is Satan good?
• Student: No.
• Professor: Where does Satan come from?
• Student: From.. God.
• Professor: That’s right. Tell me son, is there evil in this world?
• Student: Yes.
• Professor: Evil is everywhere, isn’t it? And God did make everything. Correct?
• Student: Yes.
• Professor: So who created evil?
• (Student didn’t answer)
• Professor: Is there sickness? Immortality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things exist in the world, don’t they?
• Student: Yes, sir.
• Professor: So, who created them?
• (Student had no answer)
• Professor: Science says you have 5 senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Tell me, son.. have you ever seen God?
• Student: No, sir.
• Professor: Tell us if you have ever heard your God.
• Student: No, sir.
• Professor: Have you ever felt your God, tasted your God, smelt your God? Have you ever had any sensory perception of God, for that matter?
• Student: No, sir. I’m afraid I haven’t.
• Professor: Yet you still believe in Him?
• Student: Yes.
• Professor: According to empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, Science says your God doesn’t exist. What do you say to that, son?
• Student: Nothing. I only have my Faith.
• Professor: Yes, Faith. And that is the problem Science has.
• Student: Professor, is there such a thing as Heat?
• Professor: Yes.
• Student: And is there such a thing as Cold?
• Professor: Yes.
• Student: No, sir, there isn’t.
• (The Lecture Theatre became very quiet with this turn of events)
• Student: Sir, you can have lots of heat, even more heat, superheat, mega heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat. But we don’t have anything called cold. We can hit 458 Degrees below Zero which is no heat, but we can’t go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold. Cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of Heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.
• (There was a pon-drop silence in the Lecture Theatre)
• Student: What about darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as darkness?
• Professor: Yes. What is night if there isn’t darkness?
• Student: You’re wrong again, sir. Darkness is the absence of something. You can have Low Light, Normal Light, Bright Light, Flashing Light… But if you have No Light constantly, you have nothing and it’s called Darkness, isn’t it? In reality, darkness isn’t. If it is, You would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn’t you?
• Professor: So what is the point you are making, young man?
• Student: Sir, my point is, your Philosophical Premise is flawed.
• Professor: Flawed? Can you explain how?
• Student: Sir, you are working on the Premise of Duality. You argue there is Life and then there is Death, a good God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, Science can’t even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life, just the absence of it. Now tell me, Professor, do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?
• Professor: If you are referring to the Natural Evolutionary Process, yes of course, I do.
• Student: Have you ever observed Evolution with your own eyes, sir?
• (The professor shook his head with a smile, beginning to realize where the argument was going)
• Student: Since no one has ever observed the Process of Evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you not a Scientist but a Preacher?
• (The class was in uproar)
• Student: Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the Professor’s brain?
• (The class broke out into laughter)
• Student: Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor’s brain, felt it, touched or smelt it? .. No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established Rules of Empirical, Stable and Demonstrable Protocol, Science says that you have no brain, sir. With all due respect, sir, how do we then trust your lectures?
• (The room was silent. The Professor stared at the student, his face unfathomable)
• Professor: I guess you’ll have to take them on Faith, son.
• Student: That is it, sir.. exactly! The link between man and God is Faith. That is all that keeps things alive and moving!
• The student's name was Albert Einstein. Brilliant. 

Awesome! I've ever asked myself like that professor did, and can't find the answer once. And i love how Einstein can turn back the words. Awesome! The answer is: FAITH.

short vacation

Short Trip to Jogja, 2(evening)-5 June 2011

7 girls of Jalapati: Geby Codhel Sari Nia Lydia Ninda Fitri

 

 on the train: kereta ekonomi malabar 15.30-00.00 arrive at Stasiun Tugu (Jogja)

in the morning in front of Ama (codhel's friend)'s kost before starting day one!

 

breakfast @ Alun-alun

  @ benteng vredeburg

@ Kraton

@ Museum Affandi

lunch @ Gudeg Yu Jum

reruntuhan tempat pemandian kesultanan @ Taman Sari

dinner @ House of Raminten

sunrise @ Sundak Beach

fooling around @ Krakal Beach

brunch @ Warung Bujo

@ Musem Ulen Sentalu

Wedang Ronde @Alun-alun

dinner @ Kali Urang

Monumen Tugu

UGM

Under Tunnel

Morning till Afternoon Shopping @ Mirota Batik, Malioboro

Go Home by Bus

lunch Warung Nasi Padang Murah and dinner Mr. Burger all in the bus.

arrive at Cihampelas and go to each kost by Putra Taxi.

and our trip ends :)

Di doa ibuku

Diwaktu ku masih kecil
Gembira dan senang
Tiada duka ku kenang
Tak kunjung mengerang
Di sore hari nan sepi
Ibuku bertelut
Sujud berdoa kudengar
Namaku disebut

Reff :
Dido'a ibuku
namaku disebut
Dido'a ibuku dengar
Ada namaku disebut

Seringlah kini kukenang
Di masa yang berat
Di kala hidup mendesak
dan nyaris kusesak
melintas gambar ibuku
sewaktu bertelut
kembali sayup kudengar
namaku disebut
(Back to Reff)

Sekarang dia telah pergi
ke rumah yang senang
namun kasihnya padaku
selalu kukenang
kelak di sana kami pun
bersama bertemu
memuji Tuhan yang dengar
namaku disebut
(Back to Reff) 

entah kenapa gw merasa kangen banget sama Tuhan dan mencari lagu rohani dan inget Nikita waktu kecil dan langsung download albumnya. baca liriknya langsung nangiiiss :'(

kangen Tuhan, kangen keluarga, kangen sahabat dan kangen Mama :_____(

i do miss you, fellas :'(

i'm a bit shocked when a friend of mine tweet: "@dyanianjani gw baru libur haha @gabriellareneta dia lbh betah tinggal disana spertiny @jengajeeeng ini bu dokter, kasian klo dganggu pusing"

well maybe from all the tweets i've ever published it looks like i really enjoy my life here. yes, i really enjoy days i've spent here. compare how i study when i was in junior and high school, feels like caging, forbid doing many things, as if a high thick wall was build around me. and i just have a little time to free and much of my free time is with you, my precious fellas. that's why, i'm happy i've found my true bestfriend. you all and another of mine.

believe me, although i look like happier here, i found a true bestfriend there, Jakarta. i've ever told you all right, it's so hard to find a good friend here pals, i don't know why since when i'm so hard to trust on people. but i always trust you all, who has been my bestestfriend friend. don't say i love to stay here more than i love to stay in Jakarta. i miss you all, everyday i'm in Bandung, and wherever i am.

mommy

the one that i love the most in this world is my mom. I really really really love and appreciate her. I could do anything for her to make her happy. I try my best in study to make her proud to make her smile and to disappear her pain even if it was just a moment. She is the most patient woman i've ever found, the most caring mother for me, the kindest and the best listener and the one who always courage me whenever i'm down. the one who always alert me about God, the one i always pray for everyday. the one who does her best to stand up her family, the one who always sacrifice for us, her children. the one that loves me most in this world. 

I really wish that she will be there, when i graduate from ITB, when i graduate S2 abroad, when i have my first salary and i will give it all to her, when getting married, when i give birth, when i raise my child, when my child getting married and she sees that i grow as a succeed woman and a happy person in this world so it would make her happy and relieved.

God i beg You to always bless my mom, to always accompany her beside her whenever and wherever she is, to cure my mom sickness, to heal her heart wound, to make her forget all of her pain her distress and to always love my mom, please don't ever leave her God, i know You wouldn't, i know Your eyes will follow her, Your ears will listen to her whisper, Your heart will be the best medicine to her. Thank you Jesus, i love You :)

Mom, i wish you a bunch of happiness, Mom, i love you :')

Out of My Reach

yourlife, my life it has never been same
baby you don't know how hard it is
you told me that one day i will gain a beauty
yes may be someday but may be never
who ever knows what will happen
i'm not a seer yet you aren't a fortune teller

life is harder than i think
i could handle all of this
but it is just an illusion
i reach my limit baby
i can't stand it longer
don't ever tell me another deceit-story
a happiness is out of my reach

i'm sorry i don't tell you
i just can't share everything from the beginning
calm, i wouldn't do a stupid act
maybe i look strong yet i'm so fragile
but i won't end my life, no baby don't worry
i'm a stubborn you know,trust me

life is harder than i think
i could handle all of this
but it is just an illusion
i reach my limit baby
i can't stand it longer
don't ever tell me another deceit-story
a happiness is out of my reach

stand beside me, escort me
just have you in silence it is enough for me

a worthless, don't read this!

well i don't know what to write anyway because there isn't something urgent or something special to share with. ok, maybe we start with; until now i don't have a courage to open http://ol.akademik.itb.ac.id to see how my GPA is. until now i just know the index of my fluid mechanic, and it also was informed by my friends. well i think i will open that site at 10th Jan. yeah, i don't wanna ruin everything i will do this week :)

hmm a boring holiday since 3th Jan. not really, i mean i quite enjoy spending this 5days reading and watching, and going out with my mom, cooking and another else.yeah, i have finished read 3 books, novel (series), but i want more, i find another interesting fantasy fiction in Periplus, series again, but now it has 8books! huaaa my dad is still sane, he absolutely won't spend his money to buy me a series novel again, because now i wanna buy those 8books! and i don't have much money to buy all those books too. poor me :'(

oke whatelse readers? i lost my mood to write any worthless sentences again, well sleepy :)

2011

Happy New Year 2011! Be blessed!

Soo i haven't made any new year's resolution til now! well i'm a bit confused why it is named resolution? because for me resolution do not have a big impact to my life. Hell yeah because this resolution maybe can't stand more than hmm 2 months. (it maybe only me) I more liked it said target. For me target is something i have to achieve, my goal in this year, the last stop i have to finish. And i have some wishes to this year. I said it wishes because i can't predict it will absolutely occur but i hope God has a same will with me :) Have a super 2011, and let's hope this year will give another experience another lesson about life! Cheers!