geby.: June 2011

blood-tie

Posted by Gabriella Renetta Anindia Tambunan at 4:46 AM Thursday, June 30, 2011

once i was such a stubborn, tough-minded, and heartless towards my family. everything changes while my mom fell ill and it was like a thunder punch for me. i realize how important my family is. then another obstacle comes alternated to my life but thanks to Jesus because the faith that i have for Him saved me, my mom and all the obstacles for almost half of my age now.

although in my last post i talked about disappointment of believing on someone it doesn't include my family member. because this close blood-tie means everything to me. you know, you could chose with who you want to spend your rest life with, you choose with who you wanna share the pain, secret and happiness with but you could not choose the family you want. it is destiny. and i'm so glad i have parent who love me with their whole life. and because my parent i also love my siblings as much as i love my parent, as much as i love my self. so my sibling and my parent pain is also my pain.

today i heard such a bad news from my parent that my lil brother doesn't pass the university entrance exam to my campus. they told me to call my brother and comfort him. i couldn't call him, he switch off all his numbers. then in the minutes later he called me with his new number which i haven't saved his new number. He cried so much, he scream and said many despair words. he is such a naughty boy, he always makes my parent and me worry about his academic for many times. i think maybe this is the most difficult slap on his face from God for him. but. i can't bear it. i can't stand hearing his sobs and his desperation. i really wanna fly right away to Jakarta to hug him, to cheer him up. but i couldn't. at that time i also felt guilty and even now times shows 4:34 am and i still couldn't sleep a wink. thinking of him, his desperation. this is really killing me.

you know, this blood-tie really chain your heart one another. even when you are having fight between siblings, the harsh words come out from our mouth, but once you see your family member kneel down to distress you will fall to the ground too. and now, i'm such a helpless sister who can't give advise as an elder. i love my family, mom dad lil brother lil sister, with my whole heart. and now i'm asking life: Why you are so cruel?

believing. disappointment. contrary.

Posted by Gabriella Renetta Anindia Tambunan at 1:30 AM Wednesday, June 29, 2011

speaking of relationship, in one serial, they said, ''in relationship the most important thing is believing, so you must trust on him/her". then how could i dare enough to open my mind for welcoming stranger to my life and compare it to how much hurt i get cause of disappointment of believing on someone?

i don't know either me, who are too sensitive recently or that is how the world going? i've seen many disappointment of believing, i've tasted the feeling of rejected, alone. i've told myself that eventhough there are many examples of bad things nonetheless there will be a good thing appear and recover everything. I've watched many films and i even feel annoy when the lead character having too complicated taught and see everything in bad ways or we could say too negative thinking. but i can't help it.

in some meeting there is one senior asked me why do i still single till now? that question is quite shocking. ha! i've said many times that i'm not interested on having an affair with someone right now. but. maybe the fact is i'm too afraid to trust. can somebody help me how could i trust on someone in the condition i see and feel many rejection and i know how the fake smile is usually your habit and people around you habit?

how could you tell me to change myself if there isn't anyone who can show me how to smile cause i almost forget when is the last time i smile and laugh freely? you can say i'm too much whining but i can brave enough to say, 'don't disturb me cause i don't believe in you, who are you?' haha i assume there will be many people hate me while reading this writes. people, you can assume you can argue with your own way of thinking and so do i and this is what i think right now. it may be for a long time or short time depend on how my life remain later, but i still believe what Jesus said on Bible: all will be beautiful IN it's time. the reason why i don't give up yet in this life, i have faith to Jesus and the rest will be Him who point my journey.

Suckseed!

Posted by Gabriella Renetta Anindia Tambunan at 11:12 PM Saturday, June 11, 2011

I'm sorry but i really love this Thai movie: Suckseed! And i like this song between the music and the lyric! Pardon me if i look like a teen, instead of my age ;)

The Official MV:

Atheist Professor Philosophy vs Student

Posted by Gabriella Renetta Anindia Tambunan at 10:38 PM

An Atheist Professor of Philosophy was speaking to his Class on the problem Science has with God. He asked one of his new Christian students to stand.

Professor: You are a Christian, aren’t you, son?
Student: Yes, sir.
Professor: So, you believe in God?
Student: Absolutely, sir.
Professor: Is God good?
Student: Sure.
Professor: My brother died of cancer, even though he prayed to God to heal him. Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But God didn’t. How is God good, then? Hmm?
(Student was silent)
Professor: You can’t answer, can you? Let’s start again, young fella. Is God good?
Student: Yes.
Professor: Is Satan good?
Student: No.
Professor: Where does Satan come from?
Student: From.. God.
Professor: That’s right. Tell me son, is there evil in this world?
Student: Yes.
Professor: Evil is everywhere, isn’t it? And God did make everything. Correct?
Student: Yes.
Professor: So who created evil?
(Student didn’t answer)
Professor: Is there sickness? Immortality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things exist in the world, don’t they?
Student: Yes, sir.
Professor: So, who created them?
(Student had no answer)
Professor: Science says you have 5 senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Tell me, son.. have you ever seen God?
Student: No, sir.
Professor: Tell us if you have ever heard your God.
Student: No, sir.
Professor: Have you ever felt your God, tasted your God, smelt your God? Have you ever had any sensory perception of God, for that matter?
Student: No, sir. I’m afraid I haven’t.
Professor: Yet you still believe in Him?
Student: Yes.
Professor: According to empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, Science says your God doesn’t exist. What do you say to that, son?
Student: Nothing. I only have my Faith.
Professor: Yes, Faith. And that is the problem Science has.
Student: Professor, is there such a thing as Heat?
Professor: Yes.
Student: And is there such a thing as Cold?
Professor: Yes.
Student: No, sir, there isn’t.
(The Lecture Theatre became very quiet with this turn of events)
Student: Sir, you can have lots of heat, even more heat, superheat, mega heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat. But we don’t have anything called cold. We can hit 458 Degrees below Zero which is no heat, but we can’t go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold. Cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of Heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.
(There was a pon-drop silence in the Lecture Theatre)
Student: What about darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as darkness?
Professor: Yes. What is night if there isn’t darkness?
Student: You’re wrong again, sir. Darkness is the absence of something. You can have Low Light, Normal Light, Bright Light, Flashing Light… But if you have No Light constantly, you have nothing and it’s called Darkness, isn’t it? In reality, darkness isn’t. If it is, You would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn’t you?
Professor: So what is the point you are making, young man?
Student: Sir, my point is, your Philosophical Premise is flawed.
Professor: Flawed? Can you explain how?
Student: Sir, you are working on the Premise of Duality. You argue there is Life and then there is Death, a good God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, Science can’t even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life, just the absence of it. Now tell me, Professor, do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?
Professor: If you are referring to the Natural Evolutionary Process, yes of course, I do.
Student: Have you ever observed Evolution with your own eyes, sir?
(The professor shook his head with a smile, beginning to realize where the argument was going)
Student: Since no one has ever observed the Process of Evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you not a Scientist but a Preacher?
(The class was in uproar)
Student: Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the Professor’s brain?
(The class broke out into laughter)
Student: Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor’s brain, felt it, touched or smelt it? .. No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established Rules of Empirical, Stable and Demonstrable Protocol, Science says that you have no brain, sir. With all due respect, sir, how do we then trust your lectures?
(The room was silent. The Professor stared at the student, his face unfathomable)
Professor: I guess you’ll have to take them on Faith, son.
Student: That is it, sir.. exactly! The link between man and God is Faith. That is all that keeps things alive and moving!
The student's name was Albert Einstein. Brilliant.

Awesome! I've ever asked myself like that professor did, and can't find the answer once. And i love how Einstein can turn back the words. Awesome! The answer is: FAITH.