aku rindu aku haus.

aduh maaf yah kalau belakangan blog gw isinya curahan hati dan tentang Tuhan melulu. Yah aku rindu dan haus akan Dia yang hidup. Ada 2 lagu yang tiba-tiba melintas di kepala saat gereja tadi:

I.
Selidiki aku, lihat hatiku, apakahku sungguh mengasihimu Yesus
Kau yang mahatahu dan menilai hidupku
tak ada yang tersembunyi bagiMu
telah kulihat kebaikanmu yang tak pernah habis di hidupku
kuberjuang sampai akhirnya, Kau dapati aku tetap setia.

II.

Aku ingin selalu berada di hadiratMu
Aku ingin selalu berlindung dalam naunganMu
Di bawah kepak sayapMu
Kau bawaku terbang tinggi
Melintasi langit biru bagaikan rajawali

Bagai rajawali melintasi gunung tinggi
Bagai rajawali melintasi badai hidup
Di bawah kepak sayapMu
Kau bawaku terbang tinggi
Melintasi langit biru bagaikan rajawali


aku sungguh rindu menyembahMu ya Tuhan
aku rindu melayaniMu
aku rindu menjadi hambaMu
aku rindu memainkan tuts memuji namaMu
aku haus firmanMu
aku haus injilMu
aku haus datang ke hadiratMu
aku rindu dan aku haus. :')

i got it all wrong.

do you know that at the first time i have no intention to enter this college?

yess i even don't have any intention to study in Indonesia.

a whole smester my mind is full of many things about what will i do in Melbourne?

or how amazing my english will improve after i finish my bachelor degree!

or how interesting it will be spending a satnite in Melb city like all my friends who study there tell me.

or how fun that i will study either business or finance.

or how nice my job in future. being a business woman. being what they call 'esmud'

then everything is ruined when my mom still wanted me to study in Indonesia.
then it seems God also agrees to my mom, He made me passing the test.


technical engineering.
it doesn't suit me at all.
i never thought about it before. even a flash.
then i have to face all the things here with all of my effort.
i must endure everything.

but everything change today.
i think i got it all wrong.
i think being an engineer is not bad at all.
even i start thinking that engineer is a cool job.
thank you to ocean engineering.
especially after hearing a good class by a person from chevron.

being an engineer is a hard ya know.
not everyone have an ability to get this degree.
and i will be proud if i can be one of those great engineer.


yeah. i forget that God always has His own thinking, His own plan for me.
and that will be a super fantastic plan. ;)
i will walk in this path and enjoy it.
i know i'll face many difficulties. a really hard physic and calculus and programming.
but it doesn't matter anymore.
He puts me here so He knows i will survive.

and i will be. :)
being an engineer? why not?

Daughtry - Home

 

lyrics :

I'm staring out into the night,
Trying to hide the pain.
I'm going to the place where love
And feeling good don't ever cost a thing.
And the pain you feel's a different kind of pain.

Well I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old,
So I'm going home.
Well I'm going home.

The miles are getting longer, it seems,
The closer I get to you.
I've not always been the best man or friend for you.
But your love remains true.
And I don't know why.
You always seem to give me another try.

So I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old,

Be careful what you wish for,
'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all,
And then some you don't want.
Be careful what you wish for,
'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all, yeah.

Oh, well I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old.
I said these places and these faces are getting old,
So I'm going home.
I'm going home.

I asked Jesus ...
"How much do you love me?"
And Jesus said ...
"This much."
Then He stretched out His arms
and died.

I BELONG TO JESUS

Jesus, happy good friday!

Jesus, thanks for dying to save me.

thanks for suffering in Your way to Golgota.

thanks for Your very big sacrifice.

i know Jesus, words can't tell how deep i feel to You.

You are with me since i was born till i am now and this will remain forever.

You help me to get out from the darkness, from many demons, from many dirty things.

You always there when i need You.

You always hear me when i shout for help.

You always cheer me up when i fall in way too deep.

and the biggest things You do for me, You help me whenever i'm in distress. not just me. You help my mom, You make her strong.

i know You love me so much, more than anyone else in this world.

but, i don't know how many bad things in Your eyes that i've done.

and compare to how many good things that i've done, is that enough to replace all my stupid sin?

NO!

Jesus, many times i cried for Your forgiveness and You give it.

Jesus,

i just can promise to You,

i will do the best thing for You,

i will try hardly to always in Your way

to always rely on You.

i can't stand alone on my feet.

i will always need You.

You are my entire life.

THANK YOU VERY VERY MUCH.

I ALWAYS LOVE YOU, my dearest JESUS.