mommy

the one that i love the most in this world is my mom. I really really really love and appreciate her. I could do anything for her to make her happy. I try my best in study to make her proud to make her smile and to disappear her pain even if it was just a moment. She is the most patient woman i've ever found, the most caring mother for me, the kindest and the best listener and the one who always courage me whenever i'm down. the one who always alert me about God, the one i always pray for everyday. the one who does her best to stand up her family, the one who always sacrifice for us, her children. the one that loves me most in this world. 

I really wish that she will be there, when i graduate from ITB, when i graduate S2 abroad, when i have my first salary and i will give it all to her, when getting married, when i give birth, when i raise my child, when my child getting married and she sees that i grow as a succeed woman and a happy person in this world so it would make her happy and relieved.

God i beg You to always bless my mom, to always accompany her beside her whenever and wherever she is, to cure my mom sickness, to heal her heart wound, to make her forget all of her pain her distress and to always love my mom, please don't ever leave her God, i know You wouldn't, i know Your eyes will follow her, Your ears will listen to her whisper, Your heart will be the best medicine to her. Thank you Jesus, i love You :)

Mom, i wish you a bunch of happiness, Mom, i love you :')

Out of My Reach

yourlife, my life it has never been same
baby you don't know how hard it is
you told me that one day i will gain a beauty
yes may be someday but may be never
who ever knows what will happen
i'm not a seer yet you aren't a fortune teller

life is harder than i think
i could handle all of this
but it is just an illusion
i reach my limit baby
i can't stand it longer
don't ever tell me another deceit-story
a happiness is out of my reach

i'm sorry i don't tell you
i just can't share everything from the beginning
calm, i wouldn't do a stupid act
maybe i look strong yet i'm so fragile
but i won't end my life, no baby don't worry
i'm a stubborn you know,trust me

life is harder than i think
i could handle all of this
but it is just an illusion
i reach my limit baby
i can't stand it longer
don't ever tell me another deceit-story
a happiness is out of my reach

stand beside me, escort me
just have you in silence it is enough for me

a worthless, don't read this!

well i don't know what to write anyway because there isn't something urgent or something special to share with. ok, maybe we start with; until now i don't have a courage to open http://ol.akademik.itb.ac.id to see how my GPA is. until now i just know the index of my fluid mechanic, and it also was informed by my friends. well i think i will open that site at 10th Jan. yeah, i don't wanna ruin everything i will do this week :)

hmm a boring holiday since 3th Jan. not really, i mean i quite enjoy spending this 5days reading and watching, and going out with my mom, cooking and another else.yeah, i have finished read 3 books, novel (series), but i want more, i find another interesting fantasy fiction in Periplus, series again, but now it has 8books! huaaa my dad is still sane, he absolutely won't spend his money to buy me a series novel again, because now i wanna buy those 8books! and i don't have much money to buy all those books too. poor me :'(

oke whatelse readers? i lost my mood to write any worthless sentences again, well sleepy :)

2011

Happy New Year 2011! Be blessed!

Soo i haven't made any new year's resolution til now! well i'm a bit confused why it is named resolution? because for me resolution do not have a big impact to my life. Hell yeah because this resolution maybe can't stand more than hmm 2 months. (it maybe only me) I more liked it said target. For me target is something i have to achieve, my goal in this year, the last stop i have to finish. And i have some wishes to this year. I said it wishes because i can't predict it will absolutely occur but i hope God has a same will with me :) Have a super 2011, and let's hope this year will give another experience another lesson about life! Cheers!